Showing posts with label Dear Emilie. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dear Emilie. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Dear Emilie

I'm sitting here tonight in a silent house. Both you and your Papa are sound asleep. The only sounds are the sound of the dishwasher and the air of the video monitor that is sitting beside me.

You are snuggled so cozy in your bed. You were so tired tonight. You refused to have a nap for your Papa while I was at work today even though you were up earlier than usual this morning and needed one. You were so excited to be going over to your Great Baba's house for a couple hours this afternoon while Papa and I were at work, that you just couldn't sleep.

I'm sitting here at the computer with tears in my eyes. There are so many feelings that I want to write down, to record for you, but my thoughts are just one huge jumble. I don't know which one to record first, and how to fully articulate others. I just don't know where to start.

I think about you, and all that you do now. You are so independent, and yet such a Mama's girl all at the same time. You are so outgoing and bubbly, and yet shy and introverted as well. You are so goofy and silly and yet so serious too. Everyday you surprise us with something new that you do or say. Sometimes it's like a 13 year old is talking to us and not a toddler.

You are so grown up now. You can get dressed all on your own, and love to choose your own clothes. You are potty trained during the day, and sleep in a big girl bed. Almost all the "baby" things have left this house. Instead you have your own babies. All of their names are Baby, you won't give them a name of their own. As sad as I am to see all the baby stuff leave the house I continue to be amazed by you and the amazing person you are becoming.

You love helping me with everything I do around the house, from cooking and the laundry, to vacuuming the carpet and making the beds. You are always right by my side wanting to help. Most of the time it means that particular job will then take even longer, but I love to see how excited you get to help me do something completely mundane like moving wet socks and towels from the washing machine to the dryer.

A lot of the time as I'm watching you I pray for a pause button. I've always said that I would never wish for a stop button, but I wish some days that I could slow time just a little bit. I wish I could stay in that moment for just a little bit longer with you. I've joked with people a lot lately that time has passed so quickly, that somehow I blinked and you went from this tiny little squish in my arms to this big girl.

Tonight when I put you to bed, I put to bed a two year old. Tomorrow when you wake up, probably a little too early for me, chanting "Maaaaama, Maaaaaama" from your bed you will be a three year old.

When I go up to sleep tonight I will slowly creep into your bedroom to check on your like I do every night. I will cover you up if you have kicked off your blankets, and just stare at you resisting the urge to pick you up. Which is ironic because just hours ago I was tip toeing down the stairs praying to God you would fall asleep quickly.

Sleep tight my little one. Who knows what new adventures life has in store for us tomorrow.

Love,

Mama




Friday, April 26, 2013

Dear Emilie: 2 years old

Dear Emilie,

You will probably notice that is has taken me a little while to write this letter to you. It's now almost 2 whole months since you turned two years old. This birthday seemed like such a special birthday. You are such a big girl now. You are this little girl with thoughts, and dreams, and opinions, and you let us know about them every day. You're not our baby anymore, even though I still call you my baby. It makes me a little sad thinking that you're not a baby anymore.

The time is passing so quickly. Every day you are saying something new, or doing something new. Your Papa and I talk all the time about how we wish there was a pause button. Never a stop button though. We're always struggling with not being able to wait to see what new and exciting adventure you have next, but at the same time just wanting to savour this time with you right now for just a little bit longer.

You are such an amazing little girl. You are so affectionate, and love to give kisses and hugs and tell us "I love you". You always say it in a little whisper, like it's our little secret. You cannot wait until your cousin Joshua and your Auntie Carrie come over for a short visit in the morning. As soon as you hear the door open you run over so you can see who it is and yell "Hiya Josh!". I hope the two of you are always as close as you are now.

You love swimming, storytime at the library, and playing with your friends at daycare. You are always talking about your friends at daycare, even though you only see them once a week. You love the park and playing outside. You could play for hours outside, but also like snuggling with me in the chair in the livingroom under your blanket watching Elmo. You and Elmo, I don't know how many times we have watched your Elmo movies. You cannot get enough.

It's amazing the new things that you do everyday. We can't wait to see what the next year brings our way.

Love, Mama

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Dear Emilie (18 and 19 months)

Dear Emilie,

There is no denying it now, you are my big girl now. You are now officially closer to 2 years old than you are to 1 year old.


Even though you are a big girl, you're still my little big girl. You had your 18 month doctors appointment, and you were 21lbs and 11ozs, and 31.8 inches tall. You continue to be a tall little string bean. I think you are going to take after your Papa. You received your last two vaccinations. You were such a good, brave little girl that day. I think it helped that your Great Baba surprised you with a little treat after your appointment.


I won't lie the last couple months have been a little difficult for your Mama. You are no longer my baby, although I still call you that. You are a big girl. You run, and laugh, and talk and play. You throw temper tantrums, and go for days on end where I think the only word you will use is "Noooo!" Thankfully you still love your cuddles, and you think that every boo boo can be magically healed with a kiss. I hope that you continue to believe that for a really long time.

There were a couple months that I didn't know when you would ever really start talking. Now you talk all.the.time. You repeat so much of what we say, and pick things up so quickly. We have to be very careful what we say around you for fear of you saying something bad! You still use some of the signs that I have taught you, but you much prefer to use your words now. There are so many words that you use now I can't even remember them all. There have been a couple times you have put two words together in little "sentences" even though I know it is much too soon for that. You have said "Hi Mama!" and "Oh baby!". We're currently working on please and thank you. You have mastered please "pease", so now it's on to thank you.

You love your baby, and baby buggy, your Mega Blocks, your cousin Josh's talking Elmo, balls, pointing out your family in your little photo album, and your play kitchen. You are forever pointing out the "car car's" on the road, and when you're playing outside you will stop whatever you are you doing when you hear an "a pain" (air plane). You love air plane's.

As much as I will miss you not needing me for everything it is really fun right now. It's fun to watch to you play with you cousin and your friends. You are discovering so much about the world around you and desperately trying to tell your Mama and Papa all about it.


Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Dear Emilie

Dear Emilie,

My sweet little girl. You are now 17 whole months old. I got an e-mail update yesterday reminding me that in just one month you will be a whole year and a HALF old. I got angry and closed my e-mail. I didn't want anyone to remind me that you are getting older with each passing day. I am reminded every day of how independent, opinionated and amazing you truly are.

You walk, run, climb, talk, throw tantrums, hug, kiss, snuggle. Every day is a new discovery. It's truly amazing getting to see the world through your eyes.

You now have 16 teeth! No more feeling your gums with my fingers to see what teeth have come through the gums. We now have to hang you upside down and tickle you to see! You are so ticklish!

You are obsessed with your cousin Josh's toy cars and trucks. Every time you see a car or truck you yell out "car car!". The other day I had put the Olympics on the tv and you saw the cyclists on the screen you pointed to the screen at the car cars. Everything with more than two wheels is a car! Your favourite game is playing peek-a-boo with Josh and all of your friends. I love seeing the excitement on your face as you hide yourself and then pop back up. You could listen to the "Itsy Bitsy Spider" about 5 million times a day. You've also made up your own sign for it. You start putting your index fingers together with this sly little smile on your face until someone breaks out in song (complete with actions).

This summer has been so fun seeing you wander around the green space outside. Pointing to the birds, and climbing up and down the hills outside looking for your newest adventure on the other side. You love playing outside.

I used to wonder what you would be like as a toddler as I rocked you in the middle of the night when you were just a little baby. Never in a million years could I have imagined how exciting this time with you could be.

I can't wait to see what new adventure you have planned for tomorrow.

Love,

Mama

Friday, April 20, 2012

Dear Emilie

Dear Emilie,

What a roller coaster ride the last year has been. Actually longer than that. As the day of your birthday approached I couldn't help but think of the journey your Papa and I had to even bring you into this world. One day you'll know all that we had to do to have you. All you need to know is we both wanted you so much, and that we loved you from the first moment we saw you.

See that little black circle with the little grey circle inside? That was YOU! Your very first baby picture! You didn't even look like a baby back then, but your little heart, it was beating so fast, and so strong. It made your Mama cry! Mama and Papa fell in love with your right then and there.

How did you go from that to this:



Now that tiny little peanut with the beating heart, is crawling, and walking, and smiling and giggling, blowing bubbles in the bathtub and ripping kleenex out of the box. It's amazing how quickly you have grown up. In one year you went from needing me for everything, now you push me away so you can play with your toys, climb up the stairs all by yourself, and shove Cheerios into your mouth faster than I gave hand them to you!

You are amazing little girl. Don't you ever, ever forget that.

Even when you're teething and waking us up in the middle of the night for a cuddle, or having a temper tantrum because you didn't get your way, we love you so much. You are all of our dreams, and all of our wishes in one cute, opinionated little package.

I hope that this first year has been just as great for you as it has been for us. Papa and I know how much you have learned and how much you have grown. But you have taught us just as much, and made us grow just as much too.

To celebrate your first birthday your Papa and I made a little video. It starts off with that very same first baby picture that I just showed you, and ends on our first birthday. Happy Birthday Emilie, your Mama and Papa hope that your birthday was everything you hoped it would be.

Love, Mama



Monday, February 6, 2012

Dear Emilie

Dear Emilie,

As we get closer and closer to your first birthday I can't help but think back to what things were like a year ago leading up to your birth, and how much has changed since that day.

I am constantly amazed by your transformation over the last 11 months. Even before I was pregnant with you I always thought how magical the first year is. How this tiny little being goes from being completely dependent on parents for everything, to this (possibly) walking and talking little person! Watching you this transformation has been even more amazing.

Those nights in the beginning when I would be up multiple times during the night to feed and soothe you I would just stare at your little face. You would turn your head just so and I could see little glimpses of the little girl that you would become. Now it seems like every day there is something new you are discovering and learning. Not to mention I swear you grow overnight! Now I can see those changes that were just glimpses months ago. They make me so happy, and so sad all at the same time. Happy that you are this smart, daring, energetic, beautiful little girl. Sad because everyday you are one day older, one day further from that tiny, helpless little baby that I held in the hospital.

Sometimes when you start to cry in the middle of the night, I go to your room just a little happy that even though you're my little big girl so desperate to conquer the world, you still need your Mama. I rock you in your glider and you snuggle into my arms the same way you always have, and even though your legs are starting to hang over my lap, you are still my little girl.

Love,
Mama


Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Dear Emilie

Dear Emilie,

Oh my goodness this last month was a crazy month! You just went through an explosion of activity and developments over the last month! It first started off with your hatred of being on your tummy. You hate being on your tummy, always have. Tummy time was screaming time in our house. We put you on your tummy because the doctors and books told us to, not because you liked it. I was actually worried that you would never crawl, because crawling meant you had to be on your tummy. I was so worried that I mentioned it to your doctor at your 6 month appointment. She assured me that it was normal, and that a lot of babies hate being on their tummy, so I shouldn't worry.

I swear you were listening closely at that appointment, and decided to make me a liar, because the very next day you rolled onto your tummy and didn't start to scream. In fact you continued to play with your toys on your tummy for five whole minutes before you started to fuss and let me know you had enough. Five whole minutes! I didn't know whether that was a fluke or not, so Papa and I just let you be when you went on your tummy and it wasn't a fluke! You now didn't mind being on your tummy so much. You're such a sneaky little girl sometimes! Now you play on your tummy all the time, your newest trick is trying to get your knees underneath you. I predict by 8 months you will be crawling. Then Mama and Papa are in trouble!!

You sit all by yourself now too! It started last month, and now you can sit without any help at all from papa and I now. You play with all your toys in the blanket, and on the nice days you love to move your feet in the grass. You love being outside so much. You love to look at the trees, and listen to the sounds of the wind through the leaves. Most babies would hate the feel of the cold grass under their feet and legs, but not you, you love it. I've even had to treat grass stains on your socks because of this!

You said your "first word" this month too! You say "ma ma ma" and "mum". I know that you don't really associate the words with me yet, but I still think it's a big deal that your first word wasn't "da da da". You talk all the time to Papa and I, and really anyone else that will listen. You smile at everyone who says hi to you (if you're in a good mood at least), and you like to flirt now. You flirt with your Papa, your Grandpa, and your Uncle Andrew and Uncle Darren too.

You're getting to be so big. Everyday your Papa and I are amazed at all the new things that you can do, but at the same time it makes us sad. Our little baby girl is leaving us, and now we have this amazing, happy, vocal little big girl instead. You haven't quite mastered the art of a hug or a kiss yet, but you put your arms around our shoulders when we carry you, and you get so happy to see us when we get home from work that you open your mouth wide and "kiss" our cheek. This is getting to be a bit tricky now since you got your first tooth! We've been waiting and waiting for the bottom teeth to come in, but instead your top left arrived first!

We can't wait to see what new and exciting things are on their way for next month!

Love, Mama

Monday, September 26, 2011

Dear Emilie

Dear Emilie,

How does 6 months pass by in the blink of an eye? I'm sitting here at the computer while you play with spoons and bowls after dinner in your highchair. You just finished your dinner. I was always amazed looking at the children of friends how many changes happen in the first year. First that baby was just this little thing that did little else but sleep, eat, and fill a diaper. Then on their first birthday they were this person, laughing, playing, walking too most of the time.

Now as I look at you, my little big girl, it makes it seem even more amazing. Everyday that goes by I am reminded of how much of a miracle you truly are to your Papa and me. Every day your are changing and growing right before our eyes. You are discovering something new and exciting about the world around you. This month you got to go swimming for the first time. It didn't last long since you decided you were ready for a nap, but you went swimming! You got to meet more family at your cousin's baby shower, and they all loved you. Your Mama and Papa even remembered the Jolly Jumper you had in your closet and we put that up for you. You love it! You bounce and bounce as long as we'll let you stay in there everyday. You even tried food for the first time this month. You loved it and Papa and I loved it too since it would fill up your tummy enough that you would sleep through the night again!

Your teething troubles continued again this month with still no sign of teeth. This is driving all of us crazy. It's so hard to see you in pain with not much we can do. We've discovered some homeopathic medication, as well as an amber teething necklace. This has helped us manage the pain along with some good old fashioned Advil on standby for the really bad days.

Your Mama and Papa can't wait to see what is in store for the next six months. Happy Half Birthday Emilie!

Love, Your Mama and Papa


With your Mama, 16 days old.
(Copyright Julian Dean Photography)


With your Papa, 16 days old.
(Copyright Julian Dean Photography)

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Dear Emilie

Dear Emilie,

Five months old. Gone are the days of our little baby content to just lie in our arms snuggled in for a little sleep. Here to stay is our little big girl. You shout, and laugh, and "talk" to us all day. You shun laying down in favour of sitting up and looking out at the world that way, or better yet standing on your legs while someone holds you steady. Just a few weeks ago you refused to put any weight on those little legs of yours, and now you could stand all day, or well until you get tired.

You won't let Mama rock you to sleep anymore, you go into the crib wide awake now, and fall asleep on your own. You will never know how hard it is to see you growing up so quickly right in front of my eyes. It's like all I do is blink, and you've discovered something new. It's an amazing thing watching you discover the world, and change and grow. It's like Papa and I can rediscover the world through your eyes too.

Never lose that sense of wonder and amazement at everything around you my little honey bunny.

Love,
Mama

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Dear Emilie


Oh Emilie, you have come so far. I remember that day when you were two days old like it was yesterday. The day we brought you home. So naive as to what was to come. You sure had us fooled sleeping all the way home. We had no idea that you would scare us with your weight loss, and show us repeatedly that you would rather sleep than eat. I had no idea how hard, and yet how wonderful it would be to be your Mama.

You amaze us everyday with a new discovery. Things that we take for granted, you find fascinating. Your little smile can brighten our day, and your laugh, well there is no greater sound. We still find ourselves staring at you, unable to believe that we created you, this beautiful, perfect little human being. You may never know the depth of our love for you,  but we will spend the rest of our days trying to show you.

Love,
Your Mama